Bottling it up
Monday, April 1, 20132:25 AM

I've bottled up all my feelings. I thought to myself, as I hit send. I'm confident. Confident my arse. Why do I even thought of asking him how is he coping with the new job and the weather here? Why do I even bothered?
I tried convincing myself that I am just being a good friend. None of my friends were convinced. I don't even know why I even bother convincing them.
I could train myself out of all this. Like a smoker, I could cut down. Like a drinker, I could kick the bottle. Like someone in love, I could learn to redesign the route to my heart so someone else stood a chance in hell of navigating it. I could do this.