love with complications
Wednesday, February 23, 201112:00 AM
i have been wasting my time at home, sleeping my ass off. mom always tells me that i am wasting my youth away instead on doing something out of the ordinary. i have been working til late these past one month and so, i don't mind wasting every little free time i have, sleeping. but not to worry, i have plans to meet girlfriends for the next few days, i shall get crazy and stay up til the sun comes up with a bottle of long island tea (lyra got it for me once when i was feeling sober. though it tasted nasty).
for the past few nights, i had this same dream. it plays in my head over and over again. but its not much of a dream actually but a memory i had and i can never seems to erase it away. for each time i think of the dream i had last night, my tears roll without realizing.
memory is a funny thing. when i was in the scene i hardly paid any attention. i never stopped to think of it as something that would make a lasting impression, certainly never imagine it two year later i would recall it in such detail.
i was in love. i still am. love with complications. the words that comes out from his mouth, the lovely voice of his, the way he jokes around. i can't help it but to fall for him instantly. though he was still hoping for the past, i still went on to love him. i opened up my broken heart, hoping he would be different and hoping for a miracle to happen. this dream. it started with. . . .
just the other day when i was in the office staring at the computer screen, when sheena pop by to see whether i was ok. she was cruel enough to ask me as to whether i miss those days when i was sitting next to him, waiting for him to finish his work. she told me, i was always helping him out, even the small little things.
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