defining my life
Friday, June 5, 20091:38 AM
How I wish there are more than seven days in a week.
How I wish there are more than 24 hours in a day.
I think my life is being fast forward.
I want it to pause for a while
At least slow down.
I'm not ready.
There are soo many things I wanna do.
Besides I don't want to be another year older.
I'm not ready to grow up.
I'm just not.
Define life.
Complicated.Hardship.
That is how I define it when people were to asked me.
I used to look forward to something everyday.
But for the past a year
I've stop.
I've forgotten what it is like to have someone to be there for me.
To care for me.
To my dearest stranger,
I know whatever you said to me is true.
I don't know why.
Okey. Maybe I do.
You have no idea what it feels like.
To have someone suddenly opening up my doors to my close broken hearted door.
You have no idea.
But.
Whatever happens
I'll just accept it with an open heart.
Only time will tell
Please, try not to say such things to me.
So what if you are half way to happiness than me?
So what if you have already found yourself a bf?
So what if down the road I'll still be single?
So what it I can't find any bf?
So what if I'm stupid?
What does it even matter to you?
You're being an asshole and I'm still nice to you
I'm sorry if I'm being mean to you right now.
But as a friend.
Could you at least
and to just be there for me.
I'm posting it here
so you are able to read it
Random:
I can't believe I was stupid enough to bought myself a redbull
and drink it on my empty tummy
adding to my tummy pain.
Knowing that I won't be able to sleep after a can of redbull.
And now ending up being wide awake instead of feeling sleepy
when heading back home just now.
I really need to take more panadol so I'll get drowsy
Labels: Time heals everything
