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Save room for me
Tuesday, May 19, 200911:56 PM

If I were not to update this post, it will probably be the third day me not uploading anything.
It's so not like me not uploading anything everyday and a friend of mine seems to know something is wrong.

What is the point of me blogging when I'm feeling down? It probably make me feeling even worst. I feel even worst than I already have.
I do at times rant my anger and sorrows here in my post. But these days, I probably rather be somewhere else. No matter with friends or alone. Just a place where I can escape and can take my mind of things.

What better things to do to keep your mind off things than to work. I wanted to work less when Im starting school in a week plus. Just so I can spend time with you. But hearing that you starting your second job soon, just broke my heart.
I know you have been spending way lot on me and I apologies. I will do anything in the world just so you won't need to take up another job. We have been spending less time and having that second job, we will probably meet even less. My heart fell when you told me about you wanting to find a second job and it fell even harder when you seems all cute and excited, you starting the job.

Who am I to tell him how I feel?
I have no right to stop him from the things he wants to do.
I'm nothing but a friend.
So, the best thing to do is just being happy for him.
No matter how much it hurts,
I'll support you from the back.
It suck when these days the only time I am able to see you will be at work and that is only when I get the same shift as you but it is never the same as we spend time together outside from work. All the things we do and the time we spend time are just memories where I can only look back. I am starting to feel that a day will come where we won't be able to spend anymore time together as we used to and when eventually your feelings might even change. You never know.

But I'm trying to look at the brighter side of things.
I miss you too much that it hurts a lot. ILY!

I just don't know what else I should do. I just don't know anymore.

I've told geraldine that I am able to work everyday before or after school and she seems happy about it. I wish I am as well.