the curious case of life
Tuesday, May 26, 200912:00 AM
I was ransacking my room to find my drawings and portfolio when instead I found a very old diary I didn't know I had. I got excited just by looking at it. Soo much for going home to rest after work. Took me hours to read it with my small ugly handwritting.
With every little detail I wrote back than, it's surprising that I don't really seems to remember it, until when I did wrote about a guy who liked me a lot. I did wrote that I felt bad not being able to develop any feelings for him. It's funny when he asked me why. Whether I go for someone smarter since couple of my exboyfriends are from the express stream.
Life is a funny thing I may say. When you like someone, you won't be able to get him and when you don't he started confessing his feelings to you. Like for an example couple of years ago this guy who work just opposite to where I was working, he confess his feelings to me. Hah~
The story goes. . .
He was new back than when I first know him and he didn't know anyone much less the place. We started saying 'hi' and it grows to small talk and eventually we became good friends. He would always find me when something is troubling him. Than one day (monthsss later), when he was having his lunch, he came by to meet me telling me whether I'm free after work and wanted to talk about something urgent. I didn't suspect anything and quickly agree. We went to this place I can't seems to remember where (I don't seems to state where we meet), and he was trying to make small talks and to me which at that point of time, I find it weird. Since I known him for couple of months, for him to be making small talks with me is just unusual, told him to spit out whatever he has to say to me and that was when he confess his feelings toward me. I thought he was joking. With the look upon his face when I laughed, I know he wasn't. And like other guys who liked me before, I told him I was sorry and that I don't feel the same way as him did towards me. He was devastated and I told him I'm leaving.
The very next day, everyone seems to heard about what happen and in a week, the whole of the building heard it. My collegues kept on telling me on how stupid I was for not accpeting his love. Kept telling me on how good looking he is and blah blah blah. Couple of months later, I quit. I couldn't bear to see the look on his face, on how heartbroken he looked or what he pretends to. He wasn't as innocent as he look after all. Or so what I wrote in my diary.
Oh yeah! Funny story. I should stop reading it and burn it away.
For the very first time when he asked me 'What do you like about me?', I had a hard time
answering. Never has any guy asked me that but instead, I was the one asking them.
And until now, I have no clue to what/which part of him that attacted me to him. M a y b e s . .
1. He look all cute in uniform
2. He is funny
3. He is really really really nice.
4. He is hardworking.
5. He isn't as selfish as me.
6. He is really sweet. In sooo many ways.
7. He piggyback me. Oh! I. L I K E. This One.
8. He is very entertaining.
9. His tongue piecing.
10. His Cheekiness.
11. His fun-going-sacastic-annoying attitude.
I can't think of anything else. I've damage my brain just thinking about it.
I can't think of anything else. I've damage my brain just thinking about it.
I didn't think I was strong enough to conquer my fear, conquer life after a previous failed relationship but you open up the doors to my heart. Sometimes I felt I could give up but you came and you change my whole world. I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see what love means. I know it may be something new between you and me but I'll never want to let go of someone like you. Someone so unbelievable. I'm not losing faith and I'm not losing hope that . . . .
♥ is a feeling about you that I can't describe.
